it's only the beginning.

panic alert!

2009-12-16T12:34:44Z

i need all the luck i can get for my posting!
KOC and PARAMORE are coming,
but i'm fucking getting a feeling that i will be stuck somewhere else.
Fruck.

"each day doesnt pass by without me worrying about D-day,
i know it's coming, i know it's happening, but really,
what can i do?"

RHINO

2009-12-11T03:46:35Z

finally am out! less than 24 hours though.
goodluck for posting to all who just pop-ed!

last major exercise coming this sunday, finally svc term is ending.
lately addicted to airline manager on fb. haha.
sorry to all who have been trying to meet me,
but my weekends are extremely tight if not they are burned by trg.

spot height

2009-11-27T02:41:43Z

s'pore has its little hidden grounds
hidden paths and hidden sounds.

gonna be doing loads of digging without sleep.
i'm so armyfied, it's kind of sickening.
what to do, suck thumb.

"everybody is given 24hours,
when you say you got no time, you find time."

chikinrais @ 2009-11-13T21:52:00

2009-11-13T13:54:20Z

just got back from 10days outfield.
gonna go Ex SK in 3 weeks time.
gonna spend my bday in camp.
damn. got to book in 2hours early bcos of some puruke.

you're so far away,
maybe you're right next door.
got me picturing your face again,
something worth waiting for.
i put all the others behind me,
they don't live up.
i know what i want, what i need.

chikinrais @ 2009-10-30T23:21:00

2009-10-30T15:29:57Z

my weekends keep getting burned.
my time outside is getting shorter.

the sand is falling,
leaving me gasping.
It's the search for the time before it leaves without you.

you don't even know yet.

chikinrais @ 2009-10-18T14:39:00

2009-10-18T06:42:42Z

i'm no longer who i used to be,
i've changed,
or i allowed myself to be changed.

i no longer get to choose much,
i've resigned to that,
or i allowed myself to resign to that fact.

no guts, no glory
no pain, no gain
suck thumb!

chikinrais @ 2009-10-09T22:58:00

2009-10-09T15:05:38Z

finally booked out after 3weeks
ocs initially made me wanna quit.
it was a really low moment.

but somehow, i was like fuck it.
i managed to get in here, it's not the time to back out.
no pain, no glory.
pain is temporary, pride is forever.
Above, Beyond, As One, ALPHA !

i am just rambling off,
kthanksforreading.

oct lucas aka lowest life form for the next 9 months,
signing out.

chikinrais @ 2009-09-11T09:02:00

2009-09-11T01:05:50Z

catchy shit, been on it for too long.

BTW, POP-ED! WOOOOOOOO.

chikinrais @ 2009-08-30T12:38:00

2009-08-30T04:42:49Z

time is running out,
like sand slipping through my fingers,
cant turn back time, cant stop time.

i'm scared, idk what to do.

'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
And finally now, we're leaving
'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one

chikinrais @ 2009-08-15T22:36:00

2009-08-15T14:44:26Z

sit test.
shit test.
"your field-camp life just started, welcome..."

chikinrais @ 2009-08-09T15:45:00

2009-08-09T07:46:30Z

field camp really is no fun.
combat rations really suck except for the dessert options.
black adhesive tape is everything.
4+ kg between your legs when you sleep aint comfy.

chikinrais @ 2009-07-31T22:01:00

2009-07-31T14:03:16Z

field camp sounds like no fun.
6days in jungle, sian.
hope my buddy doesnt rely on me too much.
damn.

chikinrais @ 2009-07-25T13:25:00

2009-07-25T05:30:17Z

i missed crookers.
i missed crookers.
sad.

chikinrais @ 2009-07-18T14:56:00

2009-07-18T06:57:48Z

book in book out
book in book out
so little time.
live range is fun, cleaning gun is not.
i need to go club soon. damn.

chikinrais @ 2009-07-10T21:14:00

2009-07-10T13:18:40Z

my cv life is taking a toll.
under a strain, causing a pain.
a heart to hold, a love not in vain.
to cherish i will, her anguish i feel.
my mistakes i know, her forgiveness i hope.

i'm just tired. from everything.
goodnight world.

chikinrais @ 2009-06-26T21:23:00

2009-06-26T13:28:37Z

my gm just passed away on last fri.
things always happen for a reason

SUPER SEXCITING 2WEEKS.
GOT GIRLS REC BUT DAMN CUI
GOT ALOT H1N1 EVERYWHERE
IDK IF I CAN POST SO BETTER NOT POST ANY THING ELSE.

Ulysses! First book out!
Sleep + Eat REAL food

kthxbai

chikinrais @ 2009-05-30T12:31:00

2009-05-30T04:35:09Z

caught NATM 2
it's really quite funny. the simple in-your-face kind.
go catch it!

grad ceremony was on thurs, photos not up yet.
wierdly, i got no feelings at the thought of leaving sch.
the sch itself, i guess didnt really make a mark this time.

oh what the heck.
i pray i dont tio ninja
i pray i dont tio ahgua
i pray i dont tio blur cock
i pray i dont die. HAHA.

chikinrais @ 2009-05-23T15:03:00

2009-05-23T07:06:34Z

ok thinking back, the company was great, though SOME bailed.

last night was really a epic phailure.
the effort money and time could have been put to better use.

butter's saviour could be inquisitive, but i may never find out.
no motivation to go back.
rebel free entry nights, ai mai?

chikinrais @ 2009-05-18T19:17:00

2009-05-18T11:20:59Z

megan fox is hotter than the sun.
the sun feels like aircon.
HAHA.

chikinrais @ 2009-05-03T21:41:00

2009-05-03T13:43:17Z

pretty neat composition. do listen!

chikinrais @ 2009-04-25T11:35:00

2009-04-25T03:36:38Z

letter arrived, bmtc sch2, june 12 botak boy.

chikinrais @ 2009-04-19T14:00:00

2009-04-19T06:03:41Z

when money matters in daily affairs are bugging you,
you've grown up.

slow down, reflect. have you been thinking?

2009-04-12T13:25:16Z

chikinrais @ 2009-04-03T21:56:00

2009-04-03T13:58:37Z

started working, got my lazy ass off to work.
some admin office job of 8hours computer+paperwork.
can you imagine yourself there in future?
god no.

chikinrais @ 2009-03-13T00:00:00

2009-03-12T16:03:12Z

waiting for my damn diploma to come.
waiting for official graduation.
probably a temp job, if i can get one.
NS enlistment. 2 years of nothingness or man-ness/ gayness